A year

It's been a year since we lost Cliff. I want to say we miss him some days but on the same note I want to say we think about him too. I know the kids do. But I also know that I'm missing him in my own way. Our lives have changed so much since he left.

A has grown and grown. She's now 5'6" and I know she's not done. She still misses her daddy everyday and I know that one day she'll slow start letting him go. I also know that she thinks that its not fair that she doesn't have a daddy but she's got someone who loves her not as much as her daddy but he does.She's as clumsy has ever but that will change once she's older. I hope...She's learning how to get along with someone who wont give into her every want.

K looks just like his daddy. Even though he's getting a hair cut once football season is over. He has grown into the football player that I knew he was. I know there are some days that he misses Cliff like when he wants to go fishing or when he wants the window totally open in the truck but he's taking everything with a grain of salt. He doesn't cry at the drop of a hat. He still holds on to the shopping cart which is getting annoying. He has learned that there are people who are just like him and I have found one.

C and D have been doing good. I know that some days they think of him and then move on. D is working and is enjoying post high school life and C is trying to make it threw high school. I know she's looking forward to being done with high school and moving on with the next chapter of her life.

As for me...if you know my life then you know me. He was at one point the man of my dreams but that all changed. I have no ill feelings toward him. He gave me 2 precious gifts and I love them with all my heart. Do I miss him? Yes when I need someone who understands our kids. But I have also found someone who is willing to learn and to be there for me. Do I think that it's fair? No I wish he was still here for our kids but he's not. He tried his hardest not to be here for them also. I'll tell you what I don't miss. I don't miss the fighting, the lying, and the cheating. I do miss some of the stuff he use to do, the things he use to say, and the way he made our kids laugh and smile. RIP Cliff you are missed by all.