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Ever wonder what will happen? I do all the time. My husband likes to think that my wondering/worrying about what I can't change or can't stop is the cause of all of my health issues. I've always been like this. I really can't help it. I mean with parents like mine how could you? I would like to say that I got put on this Earth for some reason other then being a mom/sister to my brother and sister and a mom to my kids.
Ever wonder what YOU are suppose to be? I don't want to be the wrong thing but lately I'm starting to think that both of my degrees were a waste of my time. If I could write all the time I would. I really love writing.
Ever wonder where you fit in? I do that too. I have a new family mixing with my old. My kids know to respect me and what I say but my stepson doesn't have a clue. Yes he has an illness but common since says if you are told to get up and do something DON'T PISS OFF MOM!! It bugs me. I have friends who think that "talking" to me about what my daughter tells them will help my relationship with her. Sometimes it does sometimes it pisses me OFF!! Leave us be. We aren't perfect but neither are you and your daughter. Back to my new family where is my spot? I mean really? I know my husband loves me with all of his heart but where do I stand? I mean his ex got a new car before she cheated on him. I get nothing. Oh wait I got an awesome ring and a tranny for MY TAHOE that my DEAD husband bought me. I'm so tired of being broke and stressed it's getting old. I'm already stressing about our big move next year but that's a whole other story or actually blog. Well that's all for now. Not like anyone is going to read this...