Lost

I've been lost the past few months. Ever since I lost our baby I don't know what to do or what I feel. I put a smile on my face and pretend that everything is ok with me. I know my husband sees that something is wrong & I know that he & my friends are trying to make me feel better but nothing seems to be working. They just can't seems to snap me out of it. I've read books & blogs saying that you never get over a miscarriage and they are right. I'm pretty sure that my father in law who I love and admire is beside himself trying to figure out how to help me. My parents to be honest with you could give a flying f*ck less about me. It has always been that way. My children are all about themselves but what do I expect from teenagers. I know that my husband is trying to find ways to cope with our loss & I know that he is getting a tattoo to remember the baby & I am grateful to him for that. I know that it's his way to feel better about the loss. I also know that he's trying to help me in away but his way isn't going to help me. I need to find my own way to deal with our loss...