Limbo

Limbo is an awesome game to play in gym or at the roller rink but not in life. I'm so sick of being stuck in limbo. I can't get a job cause I don't have a sitter. If I got a job I have no idea when I could start cause I don't know anyone in Clinton well enough to trust them with my daughter. I guess I could get a job for after school when my older daughter got home but I would be tired all day when I was taking care of the baby. I think me being in limbo is what is driving my emotions. That and the fact that he's in limbo too. He doesn't know when he's headed back to Missouri. I have to face the facts that he won't be home for Halloween which sucks cause it's our baby girl's 1st one. At least I can go to the church with his mom. I just wish it was different. He's not talking to me again cause I upset him. Well I'm so sorry I guess I have to keep that bottled up inside like everything else. Why can't he understand that I'm just lashing out at who's closest to me. Maybe if I could do something at home to make money I'd feel better but with the baby's schedule being off she isn't sleeping for long. I'm just so tired of limbo how low can I go?? Before I break??