The past few weeks

The past few weeks have taken a toll on me. One of my best friends is on life support scheduled to be taken off on Saturday. He has two son's one is 15 years old and the other is a little over a year old. He was in a 4 wheeler accident. It has been extremely hard on his family. His mom, dad, and sister all love him very much. I have known the family since I was a little girl. He & his sister have been there for me when other's have been too busy or they didn't like my 1st husband. Hell I had my son on their mom's birthday. They still haven't been able to top that. :-D I am not sure how I am suppose to feel. All I can hear in my head is him saying Hey Penelope and I always replied Hey Mathew David. I know I will miss that so much. I never knew how much I would miss that until I got the news about him. Yes I moved but I always knew if I went back to Alaska I would more then likely run into him and he would say Hey Penelope. One of my 1st thoughts when I heard about his accident was I hope someone got his hat. I always stole them from him and wore them when we were in high school. Did I mention that we dated a few times...I really do have mixed feeling about him dying. I have had so many of my friends die of the past few years and most of them are my guy friends. It kind of worries me. I do know that once again I will have to say good bye to someone I love but this one will be the hardest because I wont be doing it in Alaska I'll have to post it on Facebook which is far from good for me but with life right now it's hard to do anything with no money. Hell I wont even make it to my own brother's wedding which is a bummer. So to end this story I have to say "Hey Mathew David make sure you give Zebo and Nikki a hug & a kiss for me."