Sitting here

I am just sitting here. Thinking, hoping, praying that something works for me and my family. I have yet another doctors appointment coming up. We are both sick and tired of hearing the same shit every time. I'm tired of just sitting here. I can't work a job with my migraines, a toddler and no sitter. I am trying to sell Jamberry Nails & 31 bags that's working wonderfully...some months are awesome some suck like the past 2 months. My husband is trying to get a job but that's going no where fast so we are just sitting here. We've talked about moving back to Alaska but we have no home there. Neither one of us want to be there where my memories are bad and where his ex-wife is. I was told to try writing but I don't know if that will help me at all. I don't know where to start so I can make money. It sucks being me just sitting here worrying about money, the kids, and my birthday...