Time to kill

I have found myself with more time to kill lately. With our trips to Research for my husbands procedures and him sleeping I have to find ways to burn time. So far I haven't found a good way. If I'm not on Facebook book I think and sometimes thinking isn't that good for me especially right now. I love my husband but I wish he could go back to work to keep his mind off of everything that is going on right now. I am not a fan of driving back and forth every Monday & Friday. He's already tired of it too. We still have no clue on how many more weeks or months we have left of the surgeries, the rehabilitation for his neck, or anything else we may have to do with this. I know the kids are getting tired of it also. I can't wait until all of this is done so I can hug him again and have both arms wrapped around me. Or being in his arms for slow dances. I also miss making love to him. I know he really misses it too. ELJT really misses being picked up by her daddy....

Update sort of

Well they moved my husband from Centerpoint to Research Medical. All of us think that he should have been at Research the whole time. Our toddler however can't see her daddy. He is now in the burn unit and children under 12 are not allowed because of the germs they may have. They don't want the patients to get sicker. He had a shower yesterday and one today. They are going to put cadaver skin on him for a few days then remove it to put skin grafts on. They are taking the skin from his thighs. The cadaver skin helps bring oxygen to the burns so the burns start healing and are ready for the new skin. My in laws and I will be at the hospital waiting for him to be done. I am waiting for a phone call back on the motorcycle. They totaled it out. I will keep everyone updated. He also is starting to remember the accident I'm worried about him.

Grrr!!!

I am so tired and stressed. The hospital told us yesterday that my husband could go home. Then when we got there they told us he'd have to stay because he got sick. Well after we left they told him that he was getting released to another hospital for his burns. I just wish they'd make up their minds. We know he needs to heal and his burns need to be taken care of but you don't tell a family ok he's able to go home then take it away from us. I mean our poor toddler misses him like crazy. Our son misses him also. Not sure about the oldest daughter she seems to have jumped ship. She's staying out where she nanny's even thou school has started for all of them. Am I happy about that no because I need her help. I need a break once in a while from the toddler. Hell I NEED A SHOWER!! I can't do that with ELJT wanting to be on my lap all the time. GRRRRRRR!!! Hopefully the doctors will get their heads out of their asses and let us know which hospital he will be at so I can go and get his stuff. I just want this nightmare OVER!!!

Accident

Yesterday my husband had a motorcycle accident. I was driving behind him with our toddler. I watched as my rock, lover, and best friend drive over the edge of the road and down a 15' embankment. We don't know why this happened but it did. The scariest moments of my life was trying to get him to answer me yelling for me. I think he did a few times but I couldn't hear him. I stood in the middle of the road hoping that one of the truckers would know CPR or 1st Aid. Neither one of them did a thing well I take that back they stuck their heads over the edge and asked if he was alright. Another couple stopped and tried to get down to him but they were not having any luck at all. While I was on the phone with dispatch a off duty sheriff stopped and went down the embankment to help him. He had the motorcycle rear tire touching his helmet and the exhaust was on his chest. He doesn't remember a thing. The trooper who talked to me was very caring and understanding. So was the dispatch woman. Our toddler was still in the car but I had the door open so she could hear me and know that I was still there. I felt so alone at that moment in time. Because he wasn't talking much I didn't know if he was alive or dead. I've already lost one husband I have no idea what I would do if I lost him. Once he was up he said he couldn't see me and asked if I was there. I was standing right next to him. One of the firefighters let Erin pick out a stuffed bear which she didn't know what to do with. I actually think its still in our car...after she picked her toy we got in the car and followed the amblunce. I was doing fine until I started making phone calls. The hardest one I made was to my father in law telling him where we were going and what had happened. Our oldest daughter had called after the rescue team got to us so she knew what was going on. I had her call a few people and I called other people. I don't think I ever want to make those calls again. I actually lost the ambulance at one point but I entered in the hospital name and I pulled in right behind them. I didn't get to see my husband for about an hour. He had to get a CT and x-rays. All I kept thinking was please God let him be fine. At that moment in time I realized I was shaking. I had been the entire time. Once my in laws got to the hospital we were able to go back 2 at a time to see him. Our toddler wasn't able to see him until right before her sister and our friend got there to take her for the night. My brother and sister in law came from the St. Louis area to be with us also. We had the longest wait today. But we found out that his leg does not need surgery, his neck will be fine, and they are going to keep an eye on his burns if they aren't showing any improvements then he is going to get skin graphs. I've had one on my right arm so I know what they are like. Right now I'm still numb. I don't know if I can do this but I am not giving up on him or on us. Our family depends on us we are a team and we are each others happily ever after...

School

School is almost on us once again. This will be the last time that our oldest daughter will be in a school all by herself. This will be the 1st time ever that I haven't had to get our son up to get ready for school. I'm happy and relieved that our son finished high school but I'm sad because I know that our daughter only has 2 more years of high school left and she will be done. She's already planning on going away to school a few hours away from us. She also got her driver's license and she expects to be able to drive our truck to school everyday. Which she is sadly mistaken. She doesn't have a job to cover gas in the damn thing. She also wants to be able to work at a friends house babysitting their kids staying there all week. She did that this summer and we didn't mind but doing this while going to school is a different subject. She needs to keep her grades up so she can get a scholarship cause we can't pay for her college. I'm happy yet sad that the new school year is here...

Ahh the Joys of Toddlers

I'm not going to lie but having a toddler is a new adventure everyday. One day she'll love one food and the next she'll refuse to eat it. She does that with her juice now. She refuses to drink apple juice. She has to have mommy all the time. She'll fight with whoever is around if they are anywhere near me with her there. She'll say random thinks like, "Bubbie smokes birds." Or "Fireworks" when we are at a stop light. Some people ask me why did we have another. We were so close with being done with kids, my youngest was 14 when our toddler was born. We both tell people that our lives were not complete without her. She maybe fighting with us at bedtime, sliding down my back & butt when I'm doing yoga, or jumping on her daddy when he's not paying attention but we always win the battle be it bedtime, bad language which I will admit she gets it from me but we love her and wouldn't change a thing. :-) Oh and there will be other posts about our toddler. She's our world, our pride and joy, and our tiny smart ass terror.

Frack!!

How in the frack can a person sell product for a company that takes away your access to your webpage??? I can't get new customers if they can't access my page to buy what they want. I've had a few bad months but what can I do all of the people I sell to have winter only jobs. Yes they are teachers. I love our teachers but if they aren't working during the summer they can't order anything. I have no clue how other women can sell over $200 in products time and time again. Are they buying it themselves? Shit I wish I could afford that I'd have one of every damn thing. It doesn't help that they are so damn expensive, they never have sales and if they do it's for their retiring stuff. I mean $100 for one item doesn't appeal to anyone that buys from me. They'd rather spend cheaply and wisely. At least my other online business isn't like that one. As long as you sell $200 in product it covers your ass for the whole year...plus their product almost sells themselves.