Accident

Yesterday my husband had a motorcycle accident. I was driving behind him with our toddler. I watched as my rock, lover, and best friend drive over the edge of the road and down a 15' embankment. We don't know why this happened but it did. The scariest moments of my life was trying to get him to answer me yelling for me. I think he did a few times but I couldn't hear him. I stood in the middle of the road hoping that one of the truckers would know CPR or 1st Aid. Neither one of them did a thing well I take that back they stuck their heads over the edge and asked if he was alright. Another couple stopped and tried to get down to him but they were not having any luck at all. While I was on the phone with dispatch a off duty sheriff stopped and went down the embankment to help him. He had the motorcycle rear tire touching his helmet and the exhaust was on his chest. He doesn't remember a thing. The trooper who talked to me was very caring and understanding. So was the dispatch woman. Our toddler was still in the car but I had the door open so she could hear me and know that I was still there. I felt so alone at that moment in time. Because he wasn't talking much I didn't know if he was alive or dead. I've already lost one husband I have no idea what I would do if I lost him. Once he was up he said he couldn't see me and asked if I was there. I was standing right next to him. One of the firefighters let Erin pick out a stuffed bear which she didn't know what to do with. I actually think its still in our car...after she picked her toy we got in the car and followed the amblunce. I was doing fine until I started making phone calls. The hardest one I made was to my father in law telling him where we were going and what had happened. Our oldest daughter had called after the rescue team got to us so she knew what was going on. I had her call a few people and I called other people. I don't think I ever want to make those calls again. I actually lost the ambulance at one point but I entered in the hospital name and I pulled in right behind them. I didn't get to see my husband for about an hour. He had to get a CT and x-rays. All I kept thinking was please God let him be fine. At that moment in time I realized I was shaking. I had been the entire time. Once my in laws got to the hospital we were able to go back 2 at a time to see him. Our toddler wasn't able to see him until right before her sister and our friend got there to take her for the night. My brother and sister in law came from the St. Louis area to be with us also. We had the longest wait today. But we found out that his leg does not need surgery, his neck will be fine, and they are going to keep an eye on his burns if they aren't showing any improvements then he is going to get skin graphs. I've had one on my right arm so I know what they are like. Right now I'm still numb. I don't know if I can do this but I am not giving up on him or on us. Our family depends on us we are a team and we are each others happily ever after...