Over it

I am so over it. I'm tired of fighting about the kids, about the accident, about every damn thing that pisses him off. Lately it's been all about him. I understand that he was in the accident but he can't seem to see that it hurt OUR family not just him. His mood lately has been unbearable. He is not talking to me yet again. I'm tired of our oldest daughter taking advantage of me. I'm just so close to walking the flip away. Would anyone notice or just bitch and complain because I wasn't there to change a diaper, walk the dog, or give him his pain meds. We use to be a happy family now we are on opposite sides of the family. I don't know how to fix this or even if it can be. He's pushing me away hard and fast. It's like he doesn't want to be with me anymore. I would love to say that is fine but I don't think I can handle it if he decided that we were done. I know I said I am close to walking out but I know I won't I just want someone out there to remember that I am here. That I have feelings. That if this shit keeps up they may have to visit ME in the hospital cause I don't know how much longer I can keep my blood pressure under control. :-(