Tired of Keeping my mouth shut!

OK I've kept my mouth shut about all the shootings. And if I offend anyone feel free to delete me. Oh and keep in mind I'm an Alaskan and we really don't care what color your skin is. Parents-Teach your kids damn respect. Given the actions that some of the police have taken have been extreme but still punishing many for the mistakes of few is wrong. I realize that the people killed where someones father, son, brother or whatever but the same goes with the police officers. Kids-Put down the guns. Don't get me wrong we have guns but we don't go out and shoot people for the hell of it. Learn to respect people. Talk to the elderly and learn from them. Life isn't as hard for you as it was for them. Military/Veteran's-They fight or have fought for our freedom. They fought to give you the right to burn our flag, wipe your ass on it, and treat it like crap. It hurts them. My husband is a vet and I am damn proud to be his wife. And while all of the fuss and fight about getting $15 for flipping burgers is beyond stupid. When our military men & women make less then minimal wage. Flags-They are our history. Read up on it. Learn and realize this nation is going to shit because all of the new way everyone is thinking. I am sick of hearing about race. We are all GOD'S children no matter the color. We are all becoming racist. Is this the world we want to leave our future generations??

My Husband the Hero

I don't really like to post much about W. especially after his motorcycle accident. But stuff piles up on him and it brings us all down. He is a school bus driver he does what he can for his family. He isn't a man of many words. He served his country for 20 years and all he sees any more is hate. Hate on the internet, on the news, and on his bus. He won't talk to me right now about work but he will. He is asleep right now. He does this when he is upset and doesn't want to argue. I worry because he has PTSD and his medication doesn't always seem to work. I worry about him day and night. I don't sleep much because I but that is for a few reasons. He loves his family with his whole heart. Even when we are fighting he still loves us. I am his world so are our children. We found each other and we have saved each other a few times. He has stepped up to be a father to my older 2 children and has tried to help. Hell he was not a cat person when we got together but he is now. He has sat beside me in the ER, the doctors office, and the hospital more then any one should but he is there when I need him. My husband is MY HERO!!

Very confused

I'm very confused. My oldest daughter is making my life a living hell...she has everyone in this small ass hick town believing that I am a horrible person. The only people I thought we had as friends believe every word that she has to say. The woman has even started to call her one of her girls. I did this too my mom but my mom didn't want me. No one did. And right now I am feeling the same way here. My husband sleeps all the time. Blames school and work well here's the kicker he was off of work for this past week so I'm not believing that. He's been sleeping a lot for a very long time even before we got together. He has PTSD & I think it's been flaring up again. Which means his medicine has stopped working. He sleeps but I can't... its not tat I don't try it's just not happening again. My PTSD is out of wack too. What a truly messed up pair we are. I can't help but think maybe staying in Alaska would have been better. Well maybe...

Teenagers

Well today my teenaged daughter tells me that I post too much of her life. Umm excuse me?!?! I'm allowed to damn it. And to be fair I only post things about her when her little sister is involved cause to be honest she's boring as hell. My teen thinks that since she's 16 she is right about everything. I mean she wrecked her stepdads truck a few days AFTER she got her license. She hit a Sonic pole (yes a Sonic Drive in pole). I do post when she gets good grades or when she does something awesome but that doesn't happened very often anymore. I didn't say a word when we got into a fight her friends did. I am so sick of being the damn bad guy.

Wide awake

Once again I am wide awake the only other person up is K. So here I am thinking yet again. W is planning a trip for us to Branson. I am not really sure if I want to go. We've been to Arkansas & Mississippi in the past few months. So I am kind of tired of driving. I know he loves time with E & I but I tend to worry more about the money we are spending. I feel like we haven't really made up for him not working or going to school cause of this accident. I mean I like to get away too but I am not sure about this trip. Maybe it's the fact that the last time we were in Branson it was a few weeks before his accident. I also have a tooth that needs to be fixed so I stressing about the money for that too. I know we will end up going & we will have fun but I am not really looking forward to A being pissy cause she didn't get to go due to school. She tends to know how to ruin everything fun. If it's not about her she's not happy. It's not like we are sending her to a trip in DC this summer, we didn't get her a car, we don't make her work....oh wait she is going to DC which is costing us a bunch. She did get a fixer upper but her dad would have done the same thing, and she hardly is asked to do any work around the house. But as long as she can blame everything on me she'll be happy. Not that I will be. Actually I know she will blame it all on W...I just wish our family could learn to get along. I am not asking for them to lover each other but getting along works for me. For now...

My Obsession...

My obsession I've had this obsession since they 1st came out. Who are they you ask? I'll give you one hint...they are 5 fab brothers from Beantown...for those of you that don't know still it's Donnie, Danny, Jonathan, Jordan, & Joey. Yep the New Kids on the Block. Especially Donnie D. I know I am not the only girl to have over 200 posters of Donnie and a few of the rest. (I had to be fair). One husband couldn't stand them and banned me from listening to them but hey I had my own car and my own CD's so I listened to them even after they split up (thank goodness they got back together)..all of my kids know who they are and they can all do the dance to Step by Step well all but my toddler I am working on her. My second husband however supports my obsession well kind of. One of the few things I wanted to do was go to an NKOTB concert but I lived in Alaska so who was I kidding. I missed their Magic Summer tour but my step dad got me a jacket (I still have it. Kind of)... So when we moved to Missouri I found put that they were doing a reunion tour and they were going to be in St.Louis. I was bummed so I posted on their Facebook page how awesome it would be for them to come to KC too & they did. A day after my birthday! My darling husband got us tickets in the nose bleed seats but I didn't care i finally got to ser them. The only shitty thing was I had a 10 day migraine. My head hurt but I refused to let it get me down or make me miss the one thing I've wanted to do forever. In August of 2014 my husband was in a motorcycle accident and all I could do is listen to NKOTB they cheered me up & kept me going. I now have a few more dreams to add to my list. I would like to see them in concert again, get a burger from Wahlburger, go on their cruise, and I would love to meet them mostly Donnie & I would like to meet Jenny as well. Who knows maybe someday it will happen. But for now I am Hangin' Tough...