Death part 1

Death has hit again. I lost another one of my best friends. She had fought cancer for years. She was tough and brave. Fought with every breath she had. She has left behind a husband and 2 children. I met her when my oldest started playing football. We built a friendship that was always there. It didn't matter what either one of us needed we knew we could call, text, and message each other on Facebook and once upon a time on MySpace. Our last text messages were about her UTI that she developed. It was her 1st one ever. I wish we would have texted more I really do. I saved all of those text messages. I have reread them a thousand times. She had on funeral and they are having another one in June. I wish I was going but I need to be home for our youngest and her namesake lil Erin. How do you explain to a 5 year old that big Erin is gone? She knows about God and Jesus because of animals that we have lost. I miss her so much. I miss seeing her posts about the weather and going shopping (which she hated). Life goes on and the pain gets duller but right now it is still fresh and it hurts.